I've Got A Friend in Him

I just had to call him once, and he came out of nowhere. Cuma buat sekadar memastikan gue baik-baik aja. Cuma buat nemenin gue ke Gramedia, have a drink, dan makan es krim. Cuma buat mengembalikan mood gue yang..... nggak tau kabur ke mana sejak kemarin malam. Padahal, bisa aja dia cuma dengerin sampahan gue via chatting. Padahal, dia pasti capek abis seharian keluar. But he came.

Makasih banyak, Haryo Pangestu. You did remind me of someone who would probably do the same, if only he were here.

When you're down and troubled and you need a helping hand
and nothing, whoa, nothing is going right.
Close your eyes and think of me and soon I will be there to brighten up even your darkest nights.

You just call out my name, and you know where ever I am
I'll come running to see you again.
Winter, spring, summer, or fall, all you have to do is call and I'll be there, yeah, yeah,
you've got a friend.

If the sky above you should turn dark and full of clouds
and that old north wind should begin to blow,
keep your head together and call my name out loud.
Soon I will be knocking upon your door.

You just call out my name, and you know where ever I am
I'll come running to see you again.
Winter, spring, summer, or fall, all you have to do is call and I'll be there.
Hey, ain't it good to know that you've got a friend? People can be so cold.
They'll hurt you and desert you. Well, they'll take your soul if you let them,
oh yeah, but don't you let them. 

You just call out my name, and you know where ever I am
I'll come running to see you again.
Winter, spring, summer, or fall, all you have to do is call, Lord, I'll be there, yeah, yeah,
you've got a friend. You've got a friend.
Ain't it good to know you've got a friend. Ain't it good to know you've got a friend.
Oh, yeah, yeah, you've got a friend.

(McFly - You've Got A Friend)

Shoot, I almost let myself cry.

I Hate

Saya lupa kapan terakhir kali merasakan hal seperti ini. Rasanya seperti..... ingin menangis. Tapi tidak bisa. Kenapa ingin menangis? Pun, tidak tau. Hanya saja, belakangan tubuh menolak melakukan hal yang otak perintah.

Di saat begini, cuma butuh ada yang menemani. Dan biasanya, Haryo Pangestu--orang itu--tidak pernah absen. Tapi, ya, toh sekarang orangnya sedang berkeliling Jakarta.

And here comes Adnil, untuk yang kesekian kalinya hari ini menge-chat, "Cen, kangen."

Untuk yang ketiga kalinya, mungkin, dan selalu saya tanggapi sedewasa mungkin.

Adnil, I won't let you know that I, here, need you even more. I miss you even more, too.

Mereka bilang perbedaan antara orang introvert dan extrovert itu terletak di bagian dari mana mereka mendapatkan energi untuk hidup--bukan pendiam atau ekspresif seperti yang kebanyakan orang tau, itu tendensi. Seorang introvert mendapatkan energi dari dalam--jadi, selama ia belum mati, ia dapat hidup. Meanwhile, seorang extrovert hidup dengan mendapatkan energi dari sekitar. No other people equals to death. It's their existences, smiles, laughter, even mess they create, that keeps you alive.

And sometimes, I hate the fact that I am an extrovert. I hate the fact that I need people, to keep me alive.

If There's Such Thing As...

Ada.... Yang lucu.

Setelah sembahyang dzuhurku, aku menyempatkan diri untuk tadarus sejenak. Hal ini termasuk jarang kulakukan karena biasanya, jadwalku untuk membaca Al-Qur'an sangklek di waktu subuh/dhuha dan selepas maghrib/isya.

Alasanku sederhana. Aku gelisah, memikirkanmu. Dan Al-Qur'an selalu menjadi satu-satunya obat penenangku. Karena aku lupa membawa pulang Al-Qur'an kesayanganku ke rumah, aku pun meminjam milik mama. Aku putuskan untuk membuka random halamannya, lalu terbukalah lembaran surat Asy-Syura. Detik berikutnya, aku takjub dengan Ayat pertama yang kubaca. 

"(Allah) Pencipta langit dan bumi. Dia menjadikan bagi kamu pasangan-pasangan dari jenis kamu sendiri..." [QS. 42:11]

Dan gelisahku pun hilang, seiring sesimpul senyum yang terkembang. If there is such thing as coincidence. 

Rencana-Mu yang terindah, bukankah begitu?